-SunRise-

Viewing the Art and majesty of the Almighty Creator
Within the magnanimous sky of the Lord of the Worlds
And gliding through the Kingdom of the King of Kings
I am stripped of my breath as my eyes observe the splendor of the beauty of His Lordship’s creation
The sun rises in the distance and I am privileged to witness one of the countless miracles of Allah
Colorful to the eye yet so soft and serene
Glittering, it extinguishes all darkness that had surrounded me moments before
And now it rises and plays the role appointed to it as part of the plan of the Most Merciful
Sleepless and tired I was, my eyes no longer recognize any exhaustion
Above the clouds and within them, a feeling of tranquility overcomes me….
So great… So perfect… So miraculous are the creations of Allah
Then how, I ask, Great and Perfect is the Creator?
Glory be to You Oh Allah; You Who taught man what he knew not
I am Your slave Allah and You are my Master
Nothing is possible without Your will

No Matter What...

The days and nights pass me by and I yearn to see you…
The present no longer exists…
And I live in the past I spent with you and the future when we will meet yet again.
Days feel like months and seem to never end
With an aching heart, my love to you I send
So far away from both my love and dear friend
The emptiness of life overtakes me and I am swept away on a wave of misery
I drown in thoughts of a future together and the memory of our history
A history that can be counted in nights and days
Yet no matter what, always precious…
No matter what, eternally priceless

So distant

Emptiness and sadness within increase and expand

Life changes so rapidly and now it’s alone I stand

The dreams I once had now seem so far away

My world has become dark; both night and day

In a land far away, a part of me remained

A part of me that I always knew would someday cause me pain

A pain that cannot be described by mere words

A pain that can neither be spoken nor heard

It is a pain that cuts deep into the deepest part of the soul

I am suddenly incomplete after once being so whole

I scream inside so loud yet no one hears me

I try to speak but cannot express the hurt and scars that stab so deep

Is this what I struggled so much for?

It hurts... I don't want it anymore

Puzzled...

Caught in the middle of it all

Don’t know which way to walk

Lost and alone I am… With no one to hear my call

When even the stars cannot be seen in the sky…

And all light has been extinguished…

My only companion is the night’s breeze…

Its cold chill runs down my spine

And I shiver… Not knowing if my shiver is from the cold or from my confusion

What will the answer be?

What is the question to begin with?

What do I do? How do I know which direction is the right one?

What happens when the decisions made involve the breaking of a heart?

Where does forgiveness of oneself come into the picture? Will I forgive myself?

The burning tears roll down my cheeks leaving a trail of fire

A trail of fire leading to my heart…

A fire that will continue to burn for all of eternity

I force my lips to form a smile… A smile to put on display for others to see

As the outside appears all merry

The inside deteriorates and gradually dies…

The inside that was once so alive…

Now is feeling so helpless…

And so far from any satisfying truths.

Most Beautiful Thing

With the ripples of the waves

And light shining from your face

A glimmer of hope is born

Out of a past, painful, hurt and torn

A ray of light, through the cloud shines,

As one who was a stranger, now has become mine

A rainbow rises through the rain

Soothing the soul; once oozing with pain.

Is this real? How can this be so?

That’s right; It is the most beautiful thing my heart has ever come to know

Yearning...

Even in the depth of a dark and gloomy night

Your face radiates as all shadows fill with light

In your eyes I see rays of hope

That transmit the love I need to cope

For you I will give my very last breath

And because of you I neither fear life nor death

Your smile is the essence of my being

While I replay images of you in my mind; scene after scene

Truly, indescribable is the strength you instill within me

Within your arms and in your heart I yearn to forever be…

What is missing?

Not everyday is as beautiful as we desire it to be...
Not everyday goes according to plan.
The heart is sad... and the eyes struggle to hold back tears
What is wrong you ask?
There is not always a specific answer to that question
Loneliness?
Emptiness?
Pain?
Stress?
What exactly is missing?
You lay down and ponder over this during the late hours of the night...
You watch the hands of the clock move right along... With not a worry in the world.
But you... You worry. You think. You cry. You plead....
You wish time stops... Or perhaps goes back in time... Or even fast forwards... Confused, are you? Confused you are...
It hurts so much you want to break down and cry... You yearn to discover the cause of your sadness.
It's a matter so deep... So deep that perhaps you are avoiding its confrontation?
But what is it? What is this pain in your heart? Where did it come from?
Why don't you fight it?